Hawk of Dragon Kai: Nothing's The Same Anymore Feb 6, 2021 1:52:23 GMT SuperKamiGuy1 and Sir Cosmic Paladin like this
Post by SuperKamiGuy1 on Feb 6, 2021 1:52:23 GMT
"Sssshhh. Sssshhhh. It's okay. It's okay." Chidori rubbed her back while she let her homegirl cry it out. She remembered being in this almost exact same situation before. While she didn't kill Suko, and Kami knew she wanted to, the aftermath of that fight had left her bedridden for days. It wasn't just her physical wounds either. That monster broke things in her that she still hadn't fixed. A gaping wound in her heart she couldn't heal. She could relate to how she was feeling right now.
Hawk eventually pulled back still crying and Chidori got up to retrieve some tissues and hand them to her. She studied Hawk's face as she wiped her eyes and blew her nose. Guilt, Shame, Anger, Resentment and a multitude of other issues were written plain as day on her face and Chidori had no idea what the right words were to say here. So she would just have to try her best.
"Sooo...ummmm...listen Hawk...the feelings you're feeling right now...I think...I think they're positive in a way. I mean, uh, how can I say this...you shouldn't feel good about...what I mean is...it's good and good you know? It's good that you have a sense of empathy for what you did...it shows that you're still human, that you're better than that ♍︎◆︎■︎⧫︎ ever could be. But, all the same, he still deserved it, right? You didn't do anything wrong, Hawk. That prick was a monster. He broke into your house to do harm to you and your sister. He would have gone on to hurt other people without any remorse. So, like, what you did...was right but it's okay to feel guilty over it." She sighed. "I'm probably not making any sense. Hiro could explain it better. What I'm trying to say is...you're not guilty. You were in the right and...I'm here for you. So will the others. Everyone will be here for you. We're going to help you through this."
Despite the nightmare she was in, Hawk allowed a tiny smile to return to her lips. Chidori might be stumbling over her words but she still got the gist of what she was saying. "I get it...I still feel bad but there wasn't any other way. He kicked the ⬧︎♒︎♓︎⧫︎ out of me, Chidori and when he threatened Rin I just snapped. I saw red and it blinded me." She looked at her hands. "Before I knew what was happening I was punching through the floorboards and his head was...it was...it was just gone...and I-I did that to him!" She started crying and Chidori gently held her hands.
"Hawk...Hawk it's okay. It's okay. You're okay. He can't hurt you anymore. You're still here and you're going to be okay. I'm here for you and I always will be."
She held Hawk's hands until she calmed down and wiped her face again. "H-How did...how did you....how did you deal with it?"
"I..." Chidori went silent for a minute before she held her head. "I got lost. I threw myself into the fights. I got lost in them. I didn't care who my opponent was or how many there were. I just needed the rush. To make myself forget her. I went to a dark place until one day I woke up and...and I didn't recognize the girl in the mirror anymore." She choked up and took a moment to console herself. "I realized how lost I was so...I left town for a bit. TO get away from it all. To reconcile with Sensei Toguchi. He helped me find my center again and cope with what She did to me. To everyone."
"T-Toguchi? I don't think you ever mentioned him."
"Heh, sorry about that. He was my first Sensei. Before my family moved here. He's tough but fair. Firm but kind. Strong and wise. He's been around the block a few times so he knew how to help me. Now, I'm not the best at this, but I can offer you the same advice he gave me. Talk to people. Talk to your friends. Talk to your loved ones. It's going to be a long hard road to recovery but by spending time with your friends and the people you love, you'll find your way back."